Bliss

When you find someone who gets you and makes you the happiest thing alive... Marry them:)

I cannot put to words how much I love this boy. He is my future and my eternity. Together I hope we can accomplish all the things we set out to do. 

My perfect fairy tale:

Call me Maybe?

"Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself(herself)"

My thoughts: So often I've set out to make a big impact when in fact, sometimes I think the biggest impact I can make for the world is changing myself. Refining my edges and becoming what and who I truly am to. We have the power to achieve anything we set out to be. Don't let others make you feel insecure, you were born to become that great thing you wish to become. Forget about the times you didn't or couldn't and start remembering the times you did. Focus on what makes you happy. Push, Push, Push. Keep going, that's what I'll be doing... it'll be worth it.


To watch someone you've loved since you could remember walk away... is the hardest thing to do. To have to wait almost four month to blog about it because anytime I even began thinking of the word "Nick" I would bawl. But I want everyone to know that I could not be prouder of my best friend and my little brother. He is my hero he is a real super hero. No one can calm my fears and tears better than he. He has been there through the ups and downs and continues to be.

 

Matched.

Times have changed. I feel like while growing up I had a next step to take... A step I could make on my own and one I had everything I would need to be successful. I knew where my decisions would take me. I look out in my future and it still seems very unknown... I feel like I have climbed as high as I know how to. And I am in some sort of waiting place. By waiting place I don't mean to be inactive, to stop life but rather to "to look forward to eagerly"... A place full of endless opportunities but ones I just don't know where they will take me. They are all great options these include to go on a study abroad to Fiji, Australia, and New Zealand. To go on a mission. Continue with school. 

Lately, I've been reading The Matched Triology

Where their society matches the children to their best match to marry. Sometime I wish I was Matched. That this wait would be over. But then I realize Love isn't that easy. Love is found along the journey. Love is found in this waiting place. 

In this waiting place my cousin Lauren Claire and I

have decided to create a waiting list bucket. A bucketful of things we want to do before this wait is over.

1. Road Trip to California

2.Learn to play the guitar

3.Learn to make Ice Cream

4.Send a message in a bottle

5.Join a bowling League

6.Complete a Journal

7.Get in shape

8. Write a song 

9. Have our own stars

10. Take a homeless person out to dinner

11. Have a mud fight

12. Run a half marathon

13. Make a quilt

14. Light off Lanterns with wishes on them

15. carve our names in a tree

16.Write letters to ourselves to open in five years

This is the beginning to a new step in life

one of progressing and becoming.

 

the journey.

This week has been full of tests. Let me clarify, Final Exams. Yikes! and.... yes i should be studying for Pdbio 305 but I am taking a breather because my head is aching. Literally it aches. 

        during my break I decided to read through my journal and I found this quote:

"everything, everyone does is so they will be loved"

how true this statement is. 

my biggest mistakes happened because i wanted to be loved.
but so did my biggest successes.

love is a gift we all possess.

some choose to guard it. some give it freely. some do a bit of both.

maybe today is the day you decide:  to not be so scared, to let your guard down, to let things happen, to let people in, to use that gift.  

don't let today be another day where you didn't let those you love, know. 

 to the best siblings and parents in the world I love each of you. 

Change

Why not get a little more behind in my homework so I can blog about my past few months...

My straight forewardness self analysis:

I'm a picky eater. I judge people too quickly. When I tell a story I use the word "like" way to much.
I'm scared to death to date someone seriously. I pretend I'm not hurt even when I am. I wish when someone said lets start over they meant it....
And lastly I find a song that I like and I listen to it over and over again...

Here is this weeks song:



Summer turns to fall and fall to winter and winter to spring and finally spring to summer...

Action and reaction, ebb and flow, trial and error, change - this is the rhythm of living. Out of our over-confidence, fear; out of our fear, clearer vision, fresh hope. And out of hope, progress.

Change will come its inevitable. Why then do we try to avoid the unavoidable...Why spend the time fighting change when we can spend the time embracing it. It can be scary to embark in the unknown but its necessary for progress.

When we choose to accept Christ we are accepting to change. As we begin changing our ways from bad to good and then from good to best we are beginning to be more like Christ. How great it is to know that I can become like Christ. How comforting to know that he knows and understands me. For those who don't know this I challenge you to come to know and believe this. Change your focus, better yet, change your focus to Christ.

Fill someone's bucket... http://www.amazon.com/dp/0978507517/ref=rdr_ext_tmb
This children story is amazing. Happiness is simple.
How a sweet smile from a passerby can brighten your day. Be that smile for someone else.
Fill someone's bucket... Christ would :)

thinking is hard while twitterpated.

I promise the following youtube clip will NOT LET YOU DOWN....IT IS THE BEST.

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 Happiness is wrapping its way around me. I am feeling whole and in a sense...complete.


Don't run away...
And it's hard to love again,
When the only way it's been,
When the only love you know,
Just walked away...
If it's something that you want,
Darling you don't have to run,
You don't have to go ...

I am in love with this song. I may or may not have had it on replay for the past hour. I will not share the reasons for the repeated playing of this song... the title of my post should heed enough attention as to what and why this is happening.  Did I mention I love bowling and baking.




Lately: 

my bestest friend.

family :)

true wolverines

my girls

jason derulo concert

Volunteering for "the Stand To cure MS" 



rascal flatts concert



I am just an ant.

People watching. Campus is so large. people are everywhere. and here I am unseen. unnoticed. just there drifting far away. how many else are out there... feeling alone. If you're alone don't spend another minute being silent. speak. let the world know who you are. We are captains of our happiness so rather than standing around... create it. I am creating my happiness by speaking and acting now. I hope you can do the same. I hope you're not afraid to smile, to laugh, to sing, to give another your heart, to get hurt, to love, and to perhaps even lose everything. I know for myself I'd rather take the risk then wonder for the rest of my life.... We have nothing to fear if we put our trust in our Heavenly Father, He knows us. He loves us. And He wants the best for us.