Tuesday, December 27, 2011


Times have changed. I feel like while growing up I had a next step to take... A step I could make on my own and one I had everything I would need to be successful. I knew where my decisions would take me. I look out in my future and it still seems very unknown... I feel like I have climbed as high as I know how to. And I am in some sort of waiting place. By waiting place I don't mean to be inactive, to stop life but rather to "to look forward to eagerly"... A place full of endless opportunities but ones I just don't know where they will take me. They are all great options these include to go on a study abroad to Fiji, Australia, and New Zealand. To go on a mission. Continue with school. 

Lately, I've been reading The Matched Triology

Where their society matches the children to their best match to marry. Sometime I wish I was Matched. That this wait would be over. But then I realize Love isn't that easy. Love is found along the journey. Love is found in this waiting place. 

In this waiting place my cousin Lauren Claire and I

have decided to create a waiting list bucket. A bucketful of things we want to do before this wait is over.

1. Road Trip to California

2.Learn to play the guitar

3.Learn to make Ice Cream

4.Send a message in a bottle

5.Join a bowling League

6.Complete a Journal

7.Get in shape

8. Write a song 

9. Have our own stars

10. Take a homeless person out to dinner

11. Have a mud fight

12. Run a half marathon

13. Make a quilt

14. Light off Lanterns with wishes on them

15. carve our names in a tree

16.Write letters to ourselves to open in five years

This is the beginning to a new step in life
one of progressing and becoming.


Thursday, December 15, 2011

the journey.

This week has been full of tests. Let me clarify, Final Exams. Yikes! and.... yes i should be studying for Pdbio 305 but I am taking a breather because my head is aching. Literally it aches. 

        during my break I decided to read through my journal and I found this quote:
"everything, everyone does is so they will be loved"

how true this statement is. 
my biggest mistakes happened because i wanted to be loved.
but so did my biggest successes.

love is a gift we all possess.
some choose to guard it. some give it freely. some do a bit of both.
maybe today is the day you decide:  to not be so scared, to let your guard down, to let things happen, to let people in, to use that gift.  

don't let today be another day where you didn't let those you love, know. 

 to the best siblings and parents in the world I love each of you.